| change is inevitable... and i'm fine with some changes, the nonlife-changing ones: adding a class, a new hair style. but then there are the things that affect everything. what do you do when it hits and all of a sudden complete loneliness overwhelms you in a city of 734,288 people; when that city, home, loses every familiar feeling and comforting place that has been there since the beginning. where do you go when all you want to do is keep driving in any direction but back there. and how do you stop the thoughts, the doubts: what should i have done differently, how could i have been better, what in me was so wrong. but wait in that broken place once again, with a shell three feet thick and complete vulnerability behind it, Christ still manages to reach in. who am i that God would so persistently pursue me? how blessed to feel Him whisper, "I've been beside you all along, and when you cry yourself to sleep I'll pour my grace down abundantly." near the cross, a trembling soul,
love and mercy found me;
there the bright and morning star
sheds its beams around me. Jesus, stand between me and my foolishness! now You are exalted to the highest place.
King of the heavens,
where one day i'll bow.
but for now, i marvel at this saving grace,
and i'm full of praise once again. I once thought these things were valuable, but now I consider them worthless because of what Christ has done. Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the overwhelming preciousness of knowing For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ and become one with him. I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ. For God’s way of making us right with himself depends on faith. I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing in his death, so that, if possible, I may experience the spiritual and moral resurrection that lifts me out from among the dead, even while in the body |
